Despise Defined

Exposing frenzy of self hatred sickened by, pure disgust 
  My raging inner haunting me, torment, 
  The voices speaking clearly, chanting, telling me to end this life 
  Disfigure this abomination 
  Deform this shell of abstract, repulsive living 

  Inspect the tool of choice 

  For mayhem eyeing up and down 
  The razor blade... 

  Lift my hand to use the blade to spoil this face, vandalize 
  Rip and cut and mutilate, I will damage, leave no trace 
  Of this hideous appearance 
  Feel the razor, the cold steel on my skin, close my eyes, start to smile, 
  It'll soon be gone 
  Staggering the hate's evolving, transform into scorn, despise 
  Feel it coming now, all the bottled up hate, this will soon be done, release my hate 

  Let the razor taste my body, go deep 
  Blade descending through the tissue, scratch bone, blood is pouring out 
  Pierce my skin, hacking stabbing, slice my face up, furious rampage 
  Slice my tongue, cut my lips off, indulging in self-mutilation 

  Feeling dizzy now, from the massive bloodloss, this will soon be done, my hate released 
  Razor has tasted my skin, gone deep, blade now has descent, scratched bone, blood has been poured out. 
  On my chin the bone is totally exposed now, colored red 

  Time to separate the nose, now the blood is pissing out 
  The blade is separating tissue from my face, on my command 

  My appearance 
  Finally complete