First Row In Hell

Today was the very first day that I felt alone that I felt it slipping away
 Today was the very first time I toyed with the idea of throwing it all away
 Today I felt a scorching flame, kneel down and obey misery
 My ego was thrown in my face
 This is the first row in hell

 I can not feel, not see the pain
 Why can´t it stop? What´s going on?
 Today I was told that I was weak
 My only goal was to stay far away from pain
 Why can´t it stop? What´s going on?
 All is lost now