Trying

That kinkied up, invisible handcuffs locked on me
Been praying for my period all week
And relief that I just can't seeI question everything, my focus, my figure, my sexuality
And how much it matters or why it would mean anything
I can't keep together, I've been better
I've been thinking about it every nightI'm trying, I am
I'm trying, I am
Trying to hate from my mind, I am
Trying all the time, I am
Trying to hate from my mind, I am
Trying, trying all of mineBut kinkied up, there's no flawless education just a stupid play
I feel enough growing so far from myself
I can't reach, I can't reach, I can't reach
So brush it off, âE˜cause I wanted that it's been dusting up
When you walk like that, here's a shit,
There's a wick that will keep yourself from checkers
All these loaded questions gonna eat you aliveI'm trying, I am
I'm trying, I am
Trying to hate from my mind, I am
Trying all the time, I am
Trying to hate from my mind, I am
Trying, trying all of mineIf it kills for anything
I didn't want to
I'm just looking for a clarity
To help me to get through
If you're setting your ways
Well get enough to
It's absolutely that I can break it down for you
To feel the beast, to leave on leash
To come right back to youI'm trying, I am
I'm trying, I am
Trying to hate from my mind, I am
Trying all the time, I am
Trying to hate from my mind, I am
Trying, trying all of mine
Won't lie, why you mind