Returning the Smile You Have Had from the Start

You wanted to know if
If it was worth the pain that it's caused us
Both our lives, subtract one life
To know why it was, you deserved thisAs simple as I can
I'll tell you the difference
Between a pencil and a pen
And where it will leave us now
As your body lets you die
And I sit here still aliveIn my memory I wrote you down in ink
I never wanted to erase your story
Even with the tragedy it bringsThe fluid in your lungs
That tells you you're losing, stop breathing
The medicine that comes will fix you
Will help you but takes you from conscious to sleep
Place my hands to face and weepIn my memory I wrote you down in ink
I never wanted to erase your story
Even with the tragedy it bringsSomething beautiful
Something torn from my handsI'm not ready for you to die
This day will end with a life complete
That's not all, that's not all
That she was, I don't want to say goodbye yet
This day will end with a life complete
My closest friend here in front of meYou wanted to know if
If it was worth the pain that it's caused us
Both our lives, subtract one life
To know why it was you deserved this