Giving Up Hurts the Most

angels mourn crying, praying for your soul
as my eyes open from their state of sleep i feel my blood
turn into a frozen river
nightmares so close death was in the air
my heart locked shut, and i gave you the key
promise never to leave
as lies hold me emptiness fills my broken heart
screaming your name hoping for a response, silence summer
drowned by winter
to look in your face and realized the time we spent the chances i
had have drifted away from my fingertips
your life, your thoughts, your dreams, your love
never tried my hardest and now i cray as the hurt enters
i love you and i still love you
even though i never showed it
a piece of me is gone forever
clutching memories held so close
repeating words of love spoken to late
my eyes look all around but all they can focus on is you
for in you i find me
days past by and thy death still lingers
this coldness will never satisfy me
i want to be surrounded by angels in a place
where the sun is so warm it burns my insides
surrounded by angels
where love takes my darkest depressions
and throws it into the deepest of sea
a place i can call home, i'm crying to you Jesus
mend me, break me, make me
you're all i've got now
my eyes look all around but all they can focus on is you
for in you i find me
farewell my friend your time has come
and never will i be able to tell you i love you again