Always

If only you were here to hold my head above bloody waters 
We could make it through 
You turned your back on me and now I do the same to you 
You made me feel so hollow 
How can the man that you looked up to turn around and say three words that hurt more than you'll ever know 
You don't know what it feels like to be in my shoes 
You turned your back on me as I stood there and fell to the floor 
This time there's no reason for me to turn around and scream for help 
But if only you were here to hold my head above all those things you said to tie me down 
I'm looking for forgiveness for something that I didn't even do 
How can you call yourself and idol, a person to trust? 
How can I look so high up when you're always holding me down?